Stim

 
I have been trying to think of a funny way to use the word stim but I can't. Stimtastic! Stimmy McFlapperson! Ugh. He does this (pictured) a lot. Sometimes he likes to hold things in his hand and flip them near his head, toothbrushes, mostly. Mostly OUR toothbrushes, sad to say. I just bought like eight more for Mike and me tonight because seriously, we can never find our damned toothbrushes! Sometimes he hits himself in the head and jaw, which must feel good to him because of his sensory issues - he can see it and feel it! It doesn't bother me that he does it, but it bothers me that it bothers others. One time we were at a playgroup and he was doing it and these two girls, both about a year older than he were laughing at him. Of course, he didn't care but I did. I can still feel it. I wanted to SMACK those girls and they were little! I just - it brings up all these feelings that I have, I feel like they're making fun of me, like I am their age or something. I am getting hot just thinking about it. It's a terrible thing, to want your child to act normal so he doesn't get made fun of, and to want him to act however he needs to act to feel good and screw the world, at exactly the same time.